It was worth it. Every cold lonely moment. It was worth it.

I came across this buried deep in my google docs. I wrote it in 2007 in a time much different for me than the time I find myself in now. I wish I could go back knowing how everything would work out, and hug myself. I so totally don't miss long distance relationships. But I can say, with out any doubt, it was all worth it.

Frozen Time

Across frozen fields of wheat and snow,

my heart flies to you on wings of denial.

Can you really be so far from me?

Eighteen days may as well be eighteen years;

Six hours drive and a hundred dollars shy of my desires.

Time painfully drags its hands in a never ending spiral

of repetitive days and nights alone.

Visions and thoughts and smells and feelings,

your face flashes through my heart, the torture of it all!

Exquisite is the pain of waiting on love!

Waiting, waiting, always waiting!

Oh, what I would give up for just one breath of you,

to feel your warm eyes on my skin.

To watch you as you dress, to be part of your routine,

to feel your weight next to me at night.

The night, God how I dread the night.

To lay alone with no one but the ticking face of time to mock me...

Ticking, ticking all I hear it the slow ticking of minutes between us!

Frustrated and trapped, in the clutches of responsibility,

my heart searches irrationally for a solution.

but time will hurry through those precious moments when it comes,

not crawling like usual, but sprinting.

Time eats at the edge of every moment with you,

threatening to steal away the heat of our small moments.

Still I wait, as love makes my mind come undone.

Waiting...

MR Dec 2007