Sifting through confusing times.

There are days in which I believe I know how and what I truly want in life. Then something is said, or changed and then all of the things I counted as concrete in my life suddenly crumble to pieces. Sifting through the rubble of a shaken reality I find myself lost and asking why... There were days when that simple sound brought a smile to my face, and days where it quickly caused my tears to run. I wish very much that I could live life in an unrealistic day where smiles and kisses are warm. That unrealistic day has passed into yesterday and I am left with a blank canvas. Where do I go from here?