The Battle between Heart and Mind.

I’m at constant odds with myself most of the time. On one hand I have my heart telling me something, and on the other hand I have my mind rationalizing everything and telling my heart that it is wrong. It really is like having two people inside of me arguing. Sometimes they actually agree, but most of the time, my heart just pushes the rationality aside and does what it wants to. I know that the heart is the stronger influence of the two. It even said so in my personality type. (ENFP) But I am finding that lately I have to question all I know about what my head and my heart are telling me. How do you know if something your mind or heart is telling you is real? My heart has been constant on one subject lately; my mind has controlled its outgoing ways in one specific matter for fear of showing my emotions too much. Don’t ask me why all of the sudden in my life I am afraid to show my real feelings. I never have been in twenty nine years. Now I fear I will lose something very special to me because of this sudden change of control from heart to mind. And I also fear that I will never get to explain in person. I usually prefer to do things like this in person, now I think the point is probably moot and I’m too late. I guess I will just wait and see.