Balance

There are days when my whole world seems to come crashing down all around me. Suddenly everything has piled up and there seems to be no end to the tasks that need finished. I am completely shocked that this could have happened with the meticulous schedule I keep. How could so many things just suddenly need finishing all at once? My mind races with the long list of things and responsibilities threatening the corners of my day. There simply aren’t enough hours in my day to accomplish all that needs to be done. One last push, keep pushing, keep moving, one more evolution, one more day. It’s like sorting through a mountain of objects trying to put them in order of importance. How do you balance these things? Obligations to my daughter and school, and work, and my family, the legal paperwork and quarterly reports, house work, and home work, they all press me for attention. Sleep gets the back burner yet again as I sit through the night sorting the mess out piece by piece. The mess will clear, as all messes do, only to make room for a different mess. This one came on quick though. Damn, didn’t see it coming. How could I, every minute of my day is for a specific thing, I spend so much of my time looking closely at each small thing that sometimes I miss the big picture. I’ve gotten behind again. Being a single mom is harder than most people know. It’s a never ending juggling act that is emotionally, mentally and physically draining. So, I have to pick myself up, and keep moving again quitting isn't an option.